Sunday, September 27, 2009

admittance to a beautiful muse...


If i really wanna be honest with the rest of the world I will let them know that my most important muse is a woman. Please by no means am i saying this is in a perverted way , if anything it is more of an appreciation then something I want. The female while grasping masterful form and vibrance in one hand , hold secretly in the other a dagger for drastic times. The most beautiful and most dangerous creature. Why do i say this... well i don't really know, I mean truthfully I just think women are fascinating. To understand the way I consider this please seperate the thoughts of sexual attraction and realize that it is more more of an aesthetic fascination with the soft lines and cherry lips...

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

The Morning Loathing

Upon the rise of the sun one should find himself waking up to the same world he evaded in daze of sleep. One should also find himself immensely thankful and filled with "energy". But sadly we all wake with a sigh and a sluggish and dreaded ,trail of tears like shuffle towards the bathroom , in which we may or may not choose to pay reverance to the porcelain god. After all of that you may or may not eat depending on how sick you are of your routine and possibly your life. Then you will proceed to the wardrobe which sadly will consist of the dull weekly colors , maybe for a little excitement you'll through in a tie with some "bright" colors. Then finally you will proceed to your job or if you don't have one which is more then likely nowadays you'll go to a pub , because god knows achohol cures all things( If the blatant and brutal sarcasm has not yet been established then let me continue). This sadly is the daily regiment for most human beings. For some strange reason this trend is acceptable and even misintepreted as a sign of social wellness and security or as most say doing what is "natural" ( yes your boss will tell you this or already has , little do you know his trophy wife has nothing " natural" about her either.) That evening you will go home and have a nice meal with the "family" ( a group of disfunctional and emotionally confused individuals who would'nt be able to communicate if a gun was held to their head.)The you will sit down at the television and you will watch something like "According to Jim" or " Two and a half men" , but maybe in rare occasion you'll watch porn ( God knows hyperreal sexual interaction keeps the brain jubalent ). This is the sad and violent cycle of events which all begins with the stale breath of morning. This is the pattern which you will repeat over and over again , let us hope the watercooler at your job appreciates your prescence.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Raining Inside : October 10, 2007

The cold rides the wind as jockey does a racehorse. Bitter iciness touches the innermost parts of the body and creeps into your lungs. Each raindrop is a frigid lick upon the skin. From my lone window the lake appears to be in turmoil. The water thrashes about as would a drunkard. A familiar aura seems to preceed this orchestra of dreariness. A feeling as if somehow it resembles my inner being , that somewhere inside I have the same cold storm creeping about. To say that we as the human race do not resemble nature would be a falsehood of incomprehensible ignorance.

- Murderotika III ( Rayfield Benton)

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

PSA #1

Just to let you readers know the photos you see are ones I have taken myself. I'm an amateur photographer and I want to eventually do some professional photography so just check them out and tell me what you think.

Back from the dark side of the moon

Well Im back from Turkey and for reason i cant help but feel different . Everything feels weird when i come back you know. Life feels strange over here I know it sounds weird but everything here feels foreign. I must when i came back within myself i also feel really weird. Its not that type of unfamiliar type of weirdness but that kind of mishaped and misplaced type of strangeness. Mentally I feel exhausted and I know that all these side effects make it seem like I didnt enjoy the trip , but really in all actually I did its just the strangeness of returning that is strange and all. But anyways Im back in one piece and thats good enough.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Just a thought....

While im over here I have noticed many beneficial things that could enhance my living in the U.S..Their eating habits I have noticed are very healthy ( fruits, vegetables etc.). Also their hospitality here can be a universal tool for peace... they hold the door for one another , constantly are trying to be courteous , and also hold their religious beliefs with the upmost esteem( now im not saying theyre perfect or anything but I must say they seem alot happier this way). I dont know why know ppl say America is an ideal place lol I think my ideals of it being a sad place could be true after all. But what do I know ^_^

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Home? Just Maybe......

The other day I visited the Black Sea , it has beautiful beaches and the towns built on its coasts are beautiful also. But while there I had an experience that I feared yet loved, while standing on the beach toes in the sand , sea breeze blowing fresh smelling water , and waves serenly caressing the sand. As you all know I like to be aware of my surroundings so my sense were on full throtle that day and i just happened to notice the sand being swept away from under my feet and I realized that every time i went to stumble from losing my balance that the wave would come back again and push more sand under my feet . I realized while looking out at the Ocean at that very moment that this funny feeling in my stomach was once something I felt back in Ohio ,it was the feeling of Home. I was amazed that in a totally foreign country , way apart from everything I love I find a place I would make my home , alone and serene forever more. I FELT THE LAND CHURN MY HEART TO BUTTER AND I FELT MY SELF SPREAD ACROSS THE LAND. I was taking in the real essence of a home.